My one hour
train ride that morning was with two Europeans with very different youths and
perspectives of train rides in Europe. The gentle motion of the train and the
even sounds as it moved made our Danish companion state that she had forgotten how relaxing these old trains and their sounds were. The images that flashed through my mind’s eye were full of many memories of my own train rides in the 70s, 80s
and as late as 1993.
I was born
in Mexico City, Mexico and until ten years ago I travelled under a Mexican
passport. As such I chose my train trips with great care and only visiting
countries that to me seemed ‘safe’; I did have my share of incidents in the
‘safe countries' including being held at knife point on one train in France, but
that we can save for another story.
The ‘un-safe’ countries I regrettably chose
not to visit then, were countries like Czechoslovakia, Poland and Yugoslavia;
all of which I had ample opportunity to visit, in the years I lived in France and Sweden; especially Poland.
My fears and
feelings of peril in the then Eastern Bloc Countries stemmed from being a
bearer of a Mexican passport; as such I
felt that the country it represented would not be able to protect me if I came
to any harm in foreign lands. The other reason I chose not to visit Eastern Bloc Countries was the ingrained dread of communist evil. This was a fear well fed by my education in the U.S.A. as well as by my father.
In 1957, my dad in a
daze of admiration for the beauty of Russian Architecture managed to separate
from the group he was travelling with. He was detained for a few hours by the
KGB while it could be confirmed that he was just a young Mexican architect
attending the UIA (Union Internationale des Architectes) meeting being hosted by Russia
that year. He never really described what happened but for decades he woke up
from nightmares in which he was ‘running away from the Russians’.
As the rhythmic
sound of the train carried us to Kutná Hora my European companions described
their experiences as young European travelers; these were all happy with the feeling of safety the
passports of their native lands granted them.
I felt safe
that day on that train carrying the passport of the country I have chosen as my own; a
country that for all its flaws does grant me the feeling of security the
country of my birth did not.
As the
famous quote below expresses the scenery in the window and even The Bone Church
as seen by our very different experiences in life was interpreted in such
different ways.
"What we do see depends mainly on what we look for. ... In the same field the farmer will notice the crop, the geologists the fossils, botanists the flowers, artists the colouring, sportmen the cover for the game. Though we may all look at the same things, it does not all follow that we should see them." John Lubbock
I so wish I
could tell you that the fears of my youth were absolutely absurd, but as much
as I tried not to watch the news during my trip which on October 3rd
were
full of the sad and horrible reports of Alan Henning’s beheading.
That
very day; October 6th going to Kutna Hora anyone with any ties to Mexico
was surely haunted by the report of the mass grave found in the state of Guerrero that seemed to be the
missing students.
I avoided
the news but they danced around my mind as I visited the bones so carefully
displayed as an odd collage sculpture. I looked at the bones and remembered the
fabulous book that gave one set of bones a story; albeit a fictional one, and I
wondered how many of those souls died in peace and naturally and how many like the
Mexican students and Alan Henning died in brutal unnecessary violence.
My traveling companion Christoph Fischer had a vested and interesting family connection to the region, which he explored in fiction as well in the fantastic book The Luck of the Weissensteiners and shared with us in our journey.
On October 9th
as I waited to board my plane back to Miami at Heathrow a man next to me was
reading a Newspaper in Spanish; the large headline stated that two men had confessed to the murder of the students, I asked him in Spanish if he really
thought it was simply two men. In a neutral beautiful Spanish he answered that
two had confessed and stated his views; (which I won’t repeat as I have not had
the heart to read enough on the sad subject, but which made me very sad). A few
minutes later the man’s phone rang and he had a conversation in Perfect French,
when it ended I said to him “ Vous Parlez très bien L’espagnol pour un
Français.” He smiled and answered “Non, pas pour un Français, pour un Italien.”
In the past
few days since I came back state side, I have not heard one person mention the
student massacre in Mexico; except for my Mexican contacts in Cyberspace. These tragic deaths should not go un-noticed.
© M.C.V. Egan
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